I know that you are fathomless and there is no explanation
to your actions. You are full of wisdom and knowledge, yet I cannot understand
why you are so distant, cruel and disinterested. Do you even care about my
life? Am I just another person who makes you laugh and entertains you? You did not address or answer my questions. I
need guidance, help and explanation and you just brag about all your achievements.
There is no doubt that it is hard to be in your position and maybe you do not
have time for me with all your responsibilities. Maybe I am just not worth your
time and love. Indeed, nature is cruel, but it is clearly not the reason why
you make me suffer. You are the one who is responsible for the injustice in
this world. Why won’t you forgive my sins? Why do you punish the innocents and
not the wicked people? I still need instruction and answers.
I am not dust, I matter.
I am not afraid to tell you, that I did nothing wrong. People create their own “storm”
and they have to pay for their sins. I agree with that, but you cannot punish
me for all the crimes, that I did not commit. Why do I need to believe in your
righteousness and be loyal, if you are not treating me right. You are playing
with me just like a cat with a mouse. You give me a reason to smile and then
just kill all the hope that I had. I am going to speak the truth no matter
what, because I truly believe that I am an innocent human being.
Like Job, you do start off by saying how you realize that God is all powerful, but then unlike Job, you do not back down. You do not repeat words that God has said, nor do you sound comforted by his words, which I think is more realistic than Job's response. Job backs down and says that he could never understand, and that he is comforted that he is dust, but he is so quick to this. He has gone through so much and has been fighting against horrible occurrences. He curses God out, speaking of his unjustness, yet soon as God shows up he says practically nothing and gives in. You more realistically keep fighting for the truth, you don't back down to the being that has caused you such turmoil and gives you no reason for it. No! You've beaten all odds before and you are going to keep fighting until you die. No amount of bantering from God should have stopped Job's fight when he was nearing the finish. He gave up, and that's understandable, but he was just so close to the finish line. You on the other hand fight until the end.
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